"Its just another day", I tell myself. In my mind. My heart tells me otherwise. My senses tell me otherwise. Its there on TV. And its there on... well, mostly TV which I end up watching a lot!!! With all the Ohh choo cute romantic flicks, ads, dedicated soap opera episodes on TV for this one day, I can't help but feel like an outcast on Valentine's Day. Have I been missing something? "It's just not my day", I retell myself. Every moment.
I finally conclude that its just another of not-my-days, and enviously think of all those people who would really have fun today. For whom, "It's my day / our day" (Does it remind anybody of the Boost Commercial with a young Sachin and an old Kapil...? ) would make a lot more sense!!! And then I try to dissect Valentine's Day just to convince myself that it actually doesn't mean a lot to a lot of people. My argument is this - if you are in love, you don't need one specific day to remind yourself you are in love. For you, everyday is Valentine's Day. So, Feb 14 specifically shouldn't mean much. If you are not in love, Feb 14th should n't mean anything at all. So thats it V-Day shouldn't mean anything to anybody at all.
But, wait a minute. How come all cards - from Hallmark to 123greetings find their ways from innumerable stores to your mails and emails and hearts on this specific day!!! It definitely means something. But who!! But Why!!!
May be today is the day for you to discover if you are in love. May be today is the day to tell someone that when the whole world is thinking of love, that someone is the one you think about. May be its just one way to say I care. May be its one of all the ways to say I love (you!!!). May be. May be its the day for people who are in the honeymoon period of their love / relationship. When they need assurances. May be it is the day for all the singles on the verge of their attractions, crushes, infatuations - to dignify their feelings and dream of a fantasy for that someone who sends butterflies in their stomachs. And of course for all people in love, well its just another day!! May be the whole world is filled with such people.
And now, I know being in love is very fantastic. But I still dunno what being in love feels like. All that I know of love is that there is a lot of anticipation - of beauty, togetherness and harmony. But I guess to be in love, you need to be loved. I guess I have loved, but haven't been in love. So may be I will not understand what Valentine's Day is all about.
And so, another of not-my-days goes by for another year. Yeah Yeah I tell myself that I can spend Valentine's Day with friends and family - people I really love and care about in a very non-spousal way (thats a yucky way of putting it, but hey this is my blog), but who am I conniving!!! I wish there was a day dedicated to singles. St.Singles Day. May be St.Singles Day is everyday. Days you enjoy being single, uncommitted, un-adulterated (pardon me!!!). Well then today is my day. Sorry lovers, but till next years V-Day I wish you would be as jealous of the singles tribe!!!
In the end, I guess this stuff about a stupid day in an year doesn't matter. There are far more bigger problems in this world that need solutions. Should I waste my time thinking about these trivial things. May be not. But I guess its these trivial things that give us persective about a wasteful life that we lead. And are a part of our emotional growth. So maybe, I will just stick with this blog.
PS: Every Valentine's Day I make a resolution to make the next one different. So far, I have been steady at making the same resolution, every year. So, lets see if I will whine next year on Feb 14th. 100$ says I will.
